Sunday
It’s Sunday. My least favourite day of the week. I don’t really know why, but even in the summer Sunday’s always feel the same as the ones in the school year. Maybe it’s because all of the work and chores we have to fall on to this one day. There’s always so much to do i.e. Church, chores, ect.. I can’t really see why because it’s just like all of the other days. Maybe it’s because we get into a mental cycle and always do chores on sunday although that may not be true because I don’t wake up at 6am on monday-friday. Sunday’s always seem to bring out the worst in me and my bipolar. I can go from happy to sad to irritable. But I guess that’s just my opinion. Today my parents went to church and I stayed home and did my chores. As I was using my electric mop to mop up all the kipple that was dropped off of the countertops and the table i thought to myself “We should have a big cloth that we set under the table so that way after dinner we can just dump all of the crumbs outside and wash it. There may be some flaws in it but there’s nothing flawless. Today I want to go see my friends, but it’s Sunday. Like I said before I get really irritable on Sundays and I wouldn’t wanna say something that would offend them. I guess it’s hard for people to understand why since they aren’t bipolar. Just like I would never truly understand what schizophrenics think and why they think that. Most people say that bipolar and schizophrenia and things like that are bad, but there are ways you can look at them so they’re good. With each illness comes something bad and something good. Like with bipolar I’ll get really paranoid at times, but then I’ll think of scenarios in my head so I know what to do. None of the scenarios have ever happened, but I would never stop thinking about them for the sole purpose of that they may happen. One time I had stopped thinking about them and ended up teeth in my left jaw. How this happened was because I was outside at night and some people yelled stuff at others that they found offensive and since everyone had a head start I was left behind and they hit my head against the curb. This just shows how humanity will do things without thinking about the consequences, not thinking about others, and not taking responsibility for their actions. Some people can brush this type of stuff off, but with my paranoia I think about it constantly. Now at least I know not to hang outside at 2am. That’s all for now. More will be on the way soon
